so it's 934 Ohioan night time. once long ago i would be getting ready for bed right now, dreading school the next morning. now i think back to those days and how a lot of them weren't as bad for me as they had seemed. yeah, there are things i would change, for one, i would have tried harder, laughed more, and fought with my parents and friend less. i would have taken the time to get to know the people around me instead of thinking about myself at the time. you can look back all through out your life, and see things that you should/could/would've changed. the stark reality of it all is, that we can't change it. the only thing we can do is worry about the present and future, and try to make that the best that it can be. consider your current situation, if you were to fast forward ten years, and look back, what are the things that you would wish would have been different. then change those things now. life is too short to go through and worry about the past. the minute you are conceived you begin to die. this isn't a pleasant thought, but it's true. the fact is, we don't begin to realize it's true until we are adults. childhood is a blessing. some are rough, some are easy. not all children were given the same chances I was, but not all children saw the difficult things i saw. every generation of off-spring should be better than their parents. better in every aspect. better goals, better morals. better everything. in our society today, the youth are getting worse and worse. we as people need to focus on the youth, for they are in fact, as scary as it sounds, our future. my generation, the MTV generation, we are a JOKE. wake up people. we are nothing. we listen to the main-stream bull-shit corporate America shoves down our throats while we scream rebellion, differentiate, individuality. while all we are doing is conforming. we pierce things to be different. all the while this is the NORM for our generation. it's nothing to get your eyebrow or tongue pierced now days. it's NORMAL. not different. if you want to be different, to really stand out in this day and age you have to be the OLD stereotypical NORMAL. where you do what you are supposed to do, you have a job, you go to school. people my age make me laugh. with their drinking, music, college, parents, morals, dilemmas. we are the joke of America. if we are this bad what is the next generation of America going to stand for? it saddens me to say this, but i fear for my daughter and the life that she will have ahead of her. i can only hope and pray that we pull our heads out of our asses enough to grow up and raise our children, when the mtv generation has children, to be BETTER than we are.

to REACH for better goals, better tomorrows. that the generation after us is so much better than us, that when we are old and decrepit we can sit back and draw our social security while we watch our children and then their smarter and better children run our country, our world.

what disgusts me, is when we let MOTHERS kill FIVE! not one, not three, but FIVE of their children, and they get LIFE IN PRISON, not DEATH THAT THEY DESERVE, LIFE IN PRISON, and the evil fucking bitch gets possibility of PAROLE in FORTY YEARS. now people, we all know what this means, she'll be out in TWENTY! give me a break, her FAMILY stood by her side. her HUSBAND who's CHILDREN she KILLED deliberately, stood by her side, tearless, and demeaned the system for even PROSECUTING her at all!

we kill thousands of babies every day, with abortions. is it really getting to the point were we are allowed to kill our children AFTER they are born, and we are okay. we get a slap on the wrist? I love my daughter. very much. I would give anything for her. Even my own life. And to think of someone causing her harm, makes me want to KILL them. i just don't understand how we as a SOCIETY, can sit back and justify this woman's and other women's actions.

*sigh*

i need to get to bed. this is enough for tonight. Perhaps I should e-mail this to President Bush, I did, after all, vote for him....... *sigh*

past | present

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