.im.good.friend.11.25.02 || 12:06 am
so, ur b/f encourage the whole bi thing?
: or does he know?
xxspookyheartxx: but at this point
xxspookyheartxx: i really don't care about what he thinks
xxspookyheartxx: he knows
xxspookyheartxx: i told him about four months ago
what was his reaction?
xxspookyheartxx: he said he thinks of it as cheating
xxspookyheartxx: i dunno
xxspookyheartxx: it's strange he and i
xxspookyheartxx: he really fucked up this time
xxspookyheartxx: with me
xxspookyheartxx: and i hate him at times
xxspookyheartxx: and i love him at times
iam sorry to hear that
i know what u mean
xxspookyheartxx: but i hate him more times than i love him
xxspookyheartxx: i dunno.. it'd be easier to be without him i guess
i wonder why some guys are so insecure about another woman?
xxspookyheartxx: i'd rather be sad and alone and depressed than be with him at this point
it is hard to let go, tho
xxspookyheartxx: at least if i'm sad, i'm feeling something
yeah, i was in a relationship like that once and it truly nearly killed me; sometimes you have to decide if you want to be happy ever again or not
xxspookyheartxx: ... it's just difficult. we had so much
xxspookyheartxx: but it's all gone
xxspookyheartxx: i feel nothing at this point
and sometimes it seems like the only way to do it is to first of all make yourself sad by splitting
xxspookyheartxx: and what i sometimes feel is what's left of what he destroyed
that is a bad point...i know exactly what u mean
xxspookyheartxx: oh well
i think if the other person does not give u their all you can grow weary with a relationship
well, it sounds like you are a great mum
xxspookyheartxx: it's not that he's not giving all now.. he just didn't give it all when i was giving it all
xxspookyheartxx: and now i'm worn... and tired.. and not wanting to deal with the past anymore..
xxspookyheartxx: and how he just expects me to forget.. about the four times he lied
like too little too late?
xxspookyheartxx: like way too little too late
yeah, i understand; sometimes (for me) it was like even if i knew everything would (for the most part) be ok, it was still to late
the damage was done
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