I don't know which is worse, caring too much, or beginning not to care. I'll put this up for now:

Burnout involves physical, mental, and emotional exhaustion that is attributable to long-term involvement in emotionally demanding situations.

The physical exhaustion includes chronic fatigue, weakness, and low energy. The mental exhaustion is manifested in highly negative attitudes toward onesself, one's work, and life in general. The emotional exhaustion includes feeling hopeless, helpless and trapped.

"the cause of burnout lies in our need to believe that our lives are meaningful and that the things we do are USEFUL, IMPORTANT, even heroic.

When events UNDERMINE this belief, burnout is the result." Burnout, "usually does not occur as the result of one or two tratraumatic events but sneaks up throught a part, burnout is brought on gradually by heavy, chronic stress."

Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) involves disturbed behavior that is attributed to a major stressful even but that emerges after the stress is over.

Causes for posttraumatic disorders can be rape, seeing someone hurt, or die, experiencing a close brush with death, being in a serious accident, or discovering a SIGNIFICANT other's AFFAIR. Most common symptoms were nightmares, diffculties in sleeping, and feelings of jumpiness. PTSD is also associated with an elevated risk for substance abuse, depression, and suicide attempts.

Posttraumatic stress disorders are caused by a SINGLE episode of EXTREME stress. Of greater relevance to most people are the effects of chronic, prolonged everyday stress. Psychologists have long suspected that chronic stress contributes to many types of psychological problems and mental disorders. In the domain of common psychological problems, studies indicate that stress may contribute to poor academic performance, insomnia, sexual difficulties, alcohol abuse, and UNHAPPINESS. Stress often plays a role in the onset of full-fledged psychological disorders including depression, neurotic disorders, schizophrenia, and eating disorders.

On to something else that I love besides Psychology.

.Dashboard.Confessional.

.this.is.where.I.say.i've.had.enough.

.no.one.should.ever.feel.the.way.I.feel.now.

.a.walking.open.wound.

.a.choking.display.of.bruises.

.i.don't.believe.that.i'm.getting.any.better.

.any.better.

.waiting.here.with.hopes.the.phone.will.ring.

.and.i'm.thinking.awful.things.

.pretty. sure.that.few.would.notice.

.and.this.apartment.is.starving.for.an.argument.

.anything.at.all.to.break.the.silence.

.wandering.this.house.

.like.i've.never.wanted.out.

.and.this.is.about.as.social.as.I.get.now.

.and.i'm.throwing.away.the.letters.that.i.am.writing.you.

.cause.they.would.never.do.

.I.would.never.do.

.Never.

.waiting.here.with.hopes.the.phone.will.ring.

.and.i'm.thinking.awful.things.

.pretty.sure.that.few.would.otice.

.and.this.apartment.is.starving.for.an.argument.

.anything.at.all.to.break.the.silence.

.well.don't.be.a.liar.

.don't.say.that.everything's.working.

.when.everything's.broken.

.and.you.smile.like.the.saint.but.you.curse.like.the.sailor.

.and.you.might.say.the.jokes.on.me.

.i'm .not.laughing.

.you're.not.leaving.

.oh.who.do.i.think.I.am.kidding.

.when.I'm.the.only.one.locked.in.this.cell........

.waiting.here.with. hopes.the.phone.will.ring

.and.I'm.thinking.awful.things.

.pretty.sure.that.few.would.notice.

.and.this.apartment.is.starving.for.an.argument.

.anything.at.all.to.break.the.silence.

.don't.be.a.liar.

.don't.say.that.everything's.working.

.when.everything's.broken.

.and.you.smile.like.the.saint.but.you.curse.like.the.sailor.

.and.you.might.say.the.jokes.on.me.

I think that I could put all the dashboard lyrics up to summarize everything I feel.

That's why I heart Dashboard Confessional.

Finally made appointment for dentist. Yeah. Monday.

I'll suffer the weekend... I always do. One more thing added here 940pm ohioan time. I think I'm almost ready to give up. my stomach hurts............. *heavy.sad.sigh*

past | present

Bledgirlblue - 2003

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.end.password.blows. - 12.04.02

.nothing.fuck.it. - 11.25.02

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