alright. so technically i missed a fucking day. it's midnight so it doesn't count really. Yesterday was nathan's birthday and the day went pretty nice. my parents came and got sydney, my grandparents went out, and nathan and i went to chili's, he got a little "lit" and i was a little "buzzed" and so we were going to see mr deeds, but it didn't start till 8 and we were there at 7. so we head back towards ohio, (we were in richmond) and then we decide to go bowling, then we change our minds when we get here and see that grandma and grandpa are gone. He He! ALONE TIME!!!! so.. it was nice.. *hehe* got a little of my lingerie out and surprised him. hehe.

he spent the night, i spent the day with he and my brother levi and then i went and got sydney and then nathan i and sydney went to his moms to have his birthday party for the "family" there. God.. talk about disfunctional. Fucked Up. First off, i hate his brother, secondly, his mom puts meat in the lasagna and i don't like meat very much at all. i could go on and on.

I'm trying to get away from the bitchy, cynical way i am. i start that new job next monday and i want to start it with a new attitude. nathan and i are still great. everything is falling into place. our relationship is good. i love him to death and do truly try everything i can to make him happy. anyways. hopefully, we'll get our own place by fall or winter. it would be nice.

Maybe by sydney's 3rd birthday we will all be together under one roof as a family. we'll see.

past | present

Bledgirlblue - 2003

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