it's 2am, and im am awake, tired, but still awake. i started my diet yesterday, i ate nothing until six pm, (not my plan) but when i got home, i grabbed a cup of potato soup, with crackers, and a yogurt, downed it on the way to work along with a diet coke. not too shabby i suppose. but then at 2 am this morning when i took sydney down to take her medicine, i saw there were some tuna patties in the refrig, and i was hungry so i ate one or two with some ketchup, not a good idea, because i'm trying to settle my stomach now with diet coke. :: sigh :: yesterday i had my midterm in coding, i think i did really well, but usually when i think i did well, i did bad. but this time i think i may have been perty good. i've gotten an a, a b, and a f on each of three quizzes, the f was because i had missed the class preceding the quiz so i was pretty much pulling answers out of my ass, still, a 68, not too bad for a ass full of answers.

still worried about levi and leesa, the two of my favorite people in the world, i almost called him last night to see how he was holding up, i read leesa's diary this morning (now) and i feel so completely helpless, heartbreak hurts, and no matter what i say or do nothing is going to change it... i hate that.. because i like making people feel better about things. i hate it when people i care about are in difficult situations, and i can't do a damn thing about it.

in more of my petty news, i have been asked to move to conneticut, and this might sound crazy, but i've had more response to my resume in conneticut that i have here in ohio. nutty ain't it? i don't know though, it would be more expensive living there, and i would have to find day care for sydney and she's the most important priority. i just don't think it would be healthy for her. and i'm sure as hell not going to be without her.

no flipping way in hell am i going to be without her

on with sleep.. must work in the morning....

expecting packages from old navy and hot topic, what an odd combination.

plus, getting new glasses today.....

yeah baby yeah oh and in addition to those things.. be proud of me i act so adult now, and watch my language... it does feel nice to not say potty words.... always the lady

past | present

Bledgirlblue - 2003

2002 Review - 12.20.02

.end.password.blows. - 12.04.02

.nothing.fuck.it. - 11.25.02

.im.good.friend. - 11.25.02